I have always made myself daily “to do” lists. Without them I tend to be lost, feel very unproductive and get rather crabby. The same is true when I can seem to get my list done in a day, even with the enlisted help of an apron. The little mister is getting bigger and busier and my list is getting shorter and more undone. The feeling of accomplishment has been diminishing too. I have been having a very hard time with this. Usually getting quite upset after days of not getting anything done, which is not fair to anyone.
I appreciate a clean and organized house (yard, work space, etc.). When everything is in order it is much easier to work (and relax so I’m told). I do have many projects going all at once; knitting in the rocking chair, spinning wool, a few things in the kitchen, research books, notebooks and computer on the table, the list goes on. This may sound a bit cluttered but aside from the table things are organized and “put away” so it doesn’t usually look as bad as it sounds.
I have a tendency to flip open the bible before I go to bed and do a little reading. If the page I open to isn’t striking my interest or doesn’t seem to apply to my day I either try again or wait for another day. Not to long ago I was at my wits end, had it up to here! I was getting nothing done and it was getting the best of me. I flipped open the bible and it was as if God punched me in the face, and let me tell you I just may have started swinging by this point. This is the passage I was enlightened with:
A truly good wife
is the most precious treasure a man can find!
Her husband depends on her, and she never lets him down.
She is good to him every day of her life,
and with her own hands she gladly makes clothes.
She is like a sailing ship that brings food from across the sea.
She gets up before daylight to prepare food for her family
and for her servants.
She knows how to buy land and how to plant a vineyard,
and she always works hard.
She knows when to buy or sell, and she stays busy until late at night.
She spins her own cloth, and she helps the poor and the needy.
Her family has warm clothing,
and so she doesn’t worry when it snows.
She does her own sewing, and everything she wears is beautiful.
Her husband is a well-known and respected leader in the city.
She makes clothes to sell to the shop owners.
“The clothes she makes are attractive and of good quality.”
She is strong and graceful, as well as cheerful about the future.
Her words are sensible, and her advice is thoughtful.
She takes good care 0f her family and is never lazy.
Her children praise her, and with great pride her husband says,
“There are many good women, but you are the best!”
Charm can be deceiving, and beauty fades away,
but a woman ho honors the Lord deserves to be praised.
Show her respect— praise her in public for what she has done.
Um, yeah. This is not the exact wording of what I read but it’s close enough. Smack in the face. Let me tell yah, I was not happy with the results of my “evening flip”. By the time I had read the passage (a couple times) I was able to calm down, take a deep breath and be humbled yet again. I have since then highlight the passage in both the bibles, the one in the bedroom and the one in the dining room in hot pink. I read this passage every few days, when I need a good reminder of what I should be doing. – Getting up early and serving my family and taking care of everything is what it seems like some days. That’s ok. I really do like doing it. I find it more frustrating that there is never usually enough time to accomplish what needs to be done. Sometimes I do get lucky and everything goes as planned
and it is wonderful!
Getting up at 5 am is my limit. I will not be adding any more morning hours to my day. Morning is my favorite time of day but I don’t want it to start any earlier than that. I will say since this last humbling experience and my frequent reminders of what I am here to do things have gotten much better. I am getting more done again and keeping up with everything as I had hoped. Of course not every day is a walk in the field but that’s ok.